The baby chick leaves the coop

This whole "family moving to california" thing is becoming a reality way too quickly. I feel like I might have to move away with my mom. From where things are right now, it doesn't look like I will be able to afford anything on my own anytime soon.
My brother got a job that pays pretty well. Hopefully, that will give us a bit of a boost if we do decide to stay in New Jersey by ourselves.
There's just too much going on for me to feel anything. I get happy and smile once in a while but my head is in a constant blur. Sometimes I just want to crawl under my desk and cry til I fall asleep.