Its Back...

Today, I looked in the mirror and didn't like what was being reflected.
...
In fact, I hated it.

I haven't felt that way in a very long time. I never wanted to go back of being critical of my appearance...but I'm falling back into that thought.

I don't want a stupid lapse of self-esteem to bar me from happiness...or at least being content.

and I'm also jealous. Very very jealous of those in love and those who think they're falling in love. Jealousy sucks. But I'm happy for everyone in that category. You all deserve it.

:-(

Maybe having ultra-thin junkie hipster friends don't help. Thank God they all live in NYC.