Should I Stay? or Go-Go?

The next two weeks are going to determine whether I WANT to stay in Jersey or not. My financial aid is completely fucked up and now I can't really afford to keep going to school...especially if I end up here all by myself.

I'm looking into East LA College and Long Beach University. Maybe it won't be so bad. I could get my Bachelors over there and eventually, come back. Pretty much everyone who leaves Jersey comes back, you know.

I was in the city all day yesterday. Its undeniable that I am an East Coast Kid to the core. My aunt Loly, straight outta Cali, was bugging out at how fast paced the east coast is. She kept asking me, "What do you do to relax?" Me? I sleep. I walk around. I ride a bike. I watch a movie. I stroll down the piers in Hoboken and Edgewater. But she still thinks its stressful because they all happen in the city. She thinks California life could help me out. We talked and talked and I eventually saw her point. I mean, I love my fast paced, "all is money and power" life, but I'd like to check out what its like to go to school in a chill environment. You never know.

Word to the Wise: Do NOT fuck up your credit. Unfortunately, credit = life. I can't get any loans because I don't have a credit history and my mom's is kinda shitty.

The Anti-Starvation Celebration
This is like...a whole different subject but I don't feel like making two posts about it. So, I pretty much starved myself to look nice for the trip to the beach that never happened. Lost 5 pounds but I got sick. How fucking stupid was I? Wowee. Starving. Whatever. I started eating again and for some reason, the 5 pounds haven't been back. I've just been serving myself very little portions but making sure I eat when I'm hungry so I don't pig the fuck out when I get home. mm-hmm! I'm making sure that I take stuff to munch on from home rather than buying the fucking expensive food on campus.

I have a feeling I'm gonna get a lot of shit for thinking that moving to California might be a good idea.